this is the first time in a long time i’ve actually cried over what i see when i look in the mirror.  in the past when i’d look on instagram with my boyfriend he’d scroll really quick past the models he follows, and i told him i don’t care and he doesn’t have to do that and i meant it. but now every day i see new models he’s following/pictures of them he’s liking, girls that look nothing like me who have the big asses i lack. it was different before too cuz they were people he already followed before we dated. he tells me i’m “fucking beautiful” and cute all the time and will tell me i’m “so sexy” when we’re laying naked together, but it’s still becoming really obnoxious. the only reason i haven’t said anything yet is because it’s motivating, but damn it’s making me feel awful. i’m feeling really taken for granted in general and i feel like i don’t want to see him for a while but of course once i do that’ll all fade away