I know hormones are a big part of the problem here but damn I’m sad right now. Like too sad to be awake sad. I found out even worse news and I don’t wanna face anyone, yet at the same time would do anything for a hug right now. Would really love it if I could somehow disappear. Tell everyone I’m somewhere I’m not and just go sleep on the beach for a few days. 

well the good news is that for once i’m more concerned with feeling disappointed with myself than disappointing other people. not that I’m not concerned about both, but I think this is healthier. the bad news is that i’m still disappointing as hell

Thinking about alcohol at 12pm isn’t a good thing, especially if you’ve only been up since 10:30. Thinking about a drink every night before bed isn’t good either. Gotta watch myself on this one.