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Came to write about how peculiar it is to be experiencing sadness regarding happy moments, but it’s just fear, again. It’s scary to think that one day this could all be over. Even just writing that brings tears to my eyes.I hope the little moments we share are as special to him as they are to me. I feel that they are but I can’t help to think of all the times I’ve thought things were something they weren’t. I hope he sees me the way I see him—I hope he sees a future with me. There certainly is work I need to do on my end. I met his whole family last night and went out to dinner with them, and felt like I fit in seamlessly. I almost forgot he was even there but then every now and then I’d look at him and see he was looking at me smiling and it just made me so happy.

I am tired all day because nothing makes me happier than waking up at 5 to cuddle and scratch his back and shower him with kisses and then watch his little naked waddle to the bathroom. Kneel behind him on the end of the bed to shower him with a few more kisses as he puts on his shoes. God damn I love that man so much